I know I haven’t written in so long and I’m always telling myself to do so, but it’s been pretty damn hard to lately. Everything that crosses my thoughts lately is very negative and I am not looking for any sympathy/empathy from anyone. Plus, I don’t want it to come across as whiny. Lately, I’ve been lacking in motivation for practically everything in my life. I haven’t worked out (other than Body Jam or Body Combat…..and a couple of times at Mi Ki Do) and it bugs me. I miss it and I can’t put myself to do anything. I’ve forgotten about a lot of things that I was supposed to be attending or doing…….and I NEVER forget those sort of things. It’s humiliating each time this happens. I was even 3 hours late to my part-time job one day. And I’ve been trying so hard not to ruin the only job I have. I keep putting off writing my personal statement for a Doctorate program, my job searches seem pointless, and well, I could go on but won’t because it defeats my earlier statement. Until my brain collects itself again, I will continue to write with updates and whenever motivation kicks my ass into gear.
For those following my Body Jam journey: I have completed my video, but will be re-taping this upcoming week. I made minor mistakes during the first attempt that I feel can use cleaning up before sending one for evaluation. I have saved enough for my assessment and once I pick the best video, will definitely be shipping it out. Even though I have not sent my video in yet, I have acquired two definite classes. I am teaching Monday nights at the Arlington YMCA and Saturday afternoons at Gold’s Gym. I am definitely excited to start those up and I hope that it helps me get out of this little fog.